New year , new me…..

Yes the title is a little cliche, and yes I am fully aware that I say this every single year; and do I keep up with all my resolutions? Hell no. I am human, I eat too much junk sometimes, I can be lazy in both exercise and not getting things done, and sometimes i’m just not motivated enough. I make the wrong choices, I listen to my head far too often, and I don’t do enough for myself.

I am also fully aware that your probably reading this and thinking “that is me in a nutshell”! We need to start giving ourselves credit for what we have achieved last year, and move one. Setting resolutions just doesn’t work ! We never stick to them ; or we stick to them for a month or two and then throw in the towel because its too hard, your unmotivated, or you simply dont have time. I mean last year I achieved a few of my goals, I passed my driving test and got myself a car, I changed job roles and now i’m a Teaching assistant in a reception class. My fiance and I moved out of my parents and he was promoted to assistant manager of his store. No I didn’t smash all of my goals, but I achieved some on them, and that is an achievement all on its own.

Towards the end of the year I really got to thinking about what I want from my life, and how to achieve them goals. This year there are a few things that I would like to achieve or do etc.

  • Travel more – I want nothing more then to travel the world, amerce myself in different cultures, see the sites and gain new experiences.
  • Get out of debt
  • Lose some weight, and control my diabetes better.
  • Have a job which pays a little more, and that I can be happy in.
  • Decorate my house
  • Have more fun and some me time.

To me looking at this list it really doesn’t seem that unreachable, and I’ve already started work on this list. Last night my fiance and I booked up to go to Germany for a few days next month. It felt amazing, I was doing something spontaneous, I was doing something for me, I was living for the first time in a while.

Now I have got lots of posts coming up, everything from my travel blogs, to my house renovation, fashion tips and tricks, weight loss updates, my beauty favorites and so much more !!

I hope you stay tuned for this amazingly bumpy ride !

My weightloss journey

 

So on January 29th I started my weightloss journey and I’m now 5-6 weeks in. I have lost 16lbs overall , 4inches off of my waist , 3 of hips and 2 off of chest. And I couldn’t be happier!

So what started this whole thing was my happiness, How can I be happy when I’m not taking my health seriously ? I am a type 2 diabetic and that’s down to my weight and eating habits, and I know that if I lose the weight then I could reserve the diabetes and no longer have it! What more of an insentive do I need ? And if my clothes fit a bit better and my skin is a healither then I’m all for it !

I have been on so many ‘healthy eating diets ‘ and working out but it never worked for me in the past until now. I have downloaded the app My Fitness Pal and it is amazing ! I am able to track my Calories, and my macros and also track how much exercise I’m getting in and also my water intake. It has been a massive help for me as it gives me my daily calorie allowance, and I input what food I’m eating and it works everything out for me !

Exercise wise I have gone ant got myself a personal trainer ! I work with her once a week and she works be to the bone ! I am nearly passing out as I leave the studio , and I’m in pain for days afterwards ha! But the pain is good and all worth it in the long run. I also try to go to the gym 2-3 times a week and if I can’t make the gym I workout at home, or I go for a walk/jog down the beach, I’m always trying to do something.

I have such a long way to go, but it’s going to take time and I’m in it for the long haul ! This is just the beginning, I will be posting weekly updates , workout routines , what I eat in a week and any tips and tricks I find useful myself ! Stay tuned!

10 things I’d tell me younger self!

 

I know I can’t be the only one that often thinks about what they would do differently if they could go back to when they were younger. All the things you would have done differently, and it eats are you sometimes,because who knows where you be now, if only you’d changed thungs, or could tell yourself something that you know now.
1) Keep dancing ! When I was younger I loved to dance and know I needed to take more classes and get fit, but I told myself I wasn’t  good enough, so I stopped. I’ve regretted it ever since.

2) Get fit and healthy while your still young! I am only 22, but I’m 250lbs, type 2 diabetic and unfit. And if only I had started taking my health seriously when I was 16-17, I wouldn’t be on my weight loss journey now, I wouldn’t have gotten type 2 diabetes and I would weigh a healthy amount. My weight has always been an issue, and I have never taken it seriously until this year , and I’ve lost over a stone so in 5 weeks which for me is great!

3) Be confident! Don’t let your size hold you back!

4) Dont out your life on hold for a man. Since I was 16 I’ve been with my partner, and at times I have done/ not done things for him and because of him. I need independence.

5) Be kind to your friends, you never know what you’ve got till it’s gone….

6) Go traveling asap!! Don’t start your adult life straight away, take time out for you.

7) Think things trough, some things need more time to think about, don’t rush in.

8) Try new things, don’t be afraid to experiment, if you want to do something just do it.

9) Don’t do things that are easy, the things that push you and that are hard are usually worth more.

10) Love yourself, I am begging you, this is what your life has been missing, do this and I promise you will for happiness.

Plus size sportswear 

Is it me or is it extremely hard to find cute workout wear above a size 16-18 ? I have been struggling to find something that makes me look good and feel good, and if I’m at the gym for hours and sweating buckets I need to maintain the fierceness!! 

Most of the sportwear I have is from Fabletics.com , however I can only fit into their bottoms as I have a smaller bottom half than the top half. So trousers I wear a 20-22 usually and top half 24-26, and their tops only go up to a size 24 I believe ,and because the clothes are sportwear they are always extra tight! 

But I have been searching the Internet and was diverted to a magical place called Torrid ! Even though I’m from the UK and shipping can be troublesome , it’s still worth it. 

However their Sportswear is incredible ! They have super cute items, yes their prices are somewhat pricey, but they always have deals on and coupons available so you never have to pay full price for anything ! 

1) Torrid Active – Wild tank top – $34.90 

It is a bright vibrant pink , with a nice close fit , not to baggy and not skin tight either. It has plenty of room up top so for all the bigger chested ladies have no fear , they will give your girls room to breathe ! It has a nice breathe able material which is great for summer, even if your just having a casual day at home it’s super comfy and super cute ! 

2) Torrid Active – Success tank top $34.90

If the slogan doesn’t grab you then what will? We know that our success will piss off anyone who picked on us in secondary school or uni or even primary school! Be bold and make a statement ! Like the previous tank top this is a lightweight material making it nice and breathable, and perfect for the hot weather workouts. Great fit and can match with any leggings or capris etc as its a neutral colour so goes with everything ! 


3) Torrid active – floral print mesh cropped leggings – $54.90

Can we just appreciate this print , stunning ! Such a fun and adorable print , would go great with the first pink tank top !! Stretchy fit and comfortable lightweight material , making it easy for movement cool for them hot days. The band comes up high so will keep that muffin top hidden away.  Defo must have for any wardrobe.

4) Torrid active – ikat print sports bra – $38.50

Such a fun and quirky design , loving the black and white design with the hit of bright pink. Great coverage holds everything in really well and has great support. I would recommend using it for light to medium activity or just chilling around the house. Could match with the first or second tank top defiantly and also the capris as the print pop of pink is in both the leggings and bra!! 

Is my hard work actually paying off ??

So here we are 4-5 weeks into my fitness and healthy lifestyle ! And I’ve lost possibly 4 pounds , depending on the day and of the scales want to work properly. If not I’ve only lost 1 pound ! I’ve been going to the gym 4 times a week sometimes 5 , and then I’m there for 2 hours at a time , and eating around 1100 kcals a day , and nothing ! I mean I’m a type 2 diabetic ; so the insulin doesn’t help with the weight loss and neither does the PCOS but come on !!! All this hard work and I have nothing to show for it ! I mean I’m not asking to be a size 6 or anything , I comfortable size 16 is all I want , not asking to much right ? 
But I shall keep going ; I will continue this journey and hope that it will eventually come off ! I mean don’t get me wrong I have lost a few inches off my waist and arms etc which is fantastic ! But when I see no progress on the scales it makes me question it all , you know ? Im so glad that with my new job as a retail merchandiser I have the freedom to pick and choose my hours pretty much , and that way I can fit my gym time around work ! 

Hopefully this time next year I will be saying to myself I told ya so ; I told you I could lose the weight , get healthy and fit ! And hopefully soonish I want to try plus size modelling ! I’m just nervous , what will people think , am I pretty enough etc , but I think it’s something I would enjoy and hopefully prove that big is beautiful 🙂