New year , new me…..

Yes the title is a little cliche, and yes I am fully aware that I say this every single year; and do I keep up with all my resolutions? Hell no. I am human, I eat too much junk sometimes, I can be lazy in both exercise and not getting things done, and sometimes i’m just not motivated enough. I make the wrong choices, I listen to my head far too often, and I don’t do enough for myself.

I am also fully aware that your probably reading this and thinking “that is me in a nutshell”! We need to start giving ourselves credit for what we have achieved last year, and move one. Setting resolutions just doesn’t work ! We never stick to them ; or we stick to them for a month or two and then throw in the towel because its too hard, your unmotivated, or you simply dont have time. I mean last year I achieved a few of my goals, I passed my driving test and got myself a car, I changed job roles and now i’m a Teaching assistant in a reception class. My fiance and I moved out of my parents and he was promoted to assistant manager of his store. No I didn’t smash all of my goals, but I achieved some on them, and that is an achievement all on its own.

Towards the end of the year I really got to thinking about what I want from my life, and how to achieve them goals. This year there are a few things that I would like to achieve or do etc.

  • Travel more – I want nothing more then to travel the world, amerce myself in different cultures, see the sites and gain new experiences.
  • Get out of debt
  • Lose some weight, and control my diabetes better.
  • Have a job which pays a little more, and that I can be happy in.
  • Decorate my house
  • Have more fun and some me time.

To me looking at this list it really doesn’t seem that unreachable, and I’ve already started work on this list. Last night my fiance and I booked up to go to Germany for a few days next month. It felt amazing, I was doing something spontaneous, I was doing something for me, I was living for the first time in a while.

Now I have got lots of posts coming up, everything from my travel blogs, to my house renovation, fashion tips and tricks, weight loss updates, my beauty favorites and so much more !!

I hope you stay tuned for this amazingly bumpy ride !

Wingham wildlife park

I got an amazing new camera for christmas it is the Sony DSC-H400 and I have been trying my hand at some photogprahy, thought id share some of my favourites !

10 things I’d tell me younger self!

 

I know I can’t be the only one that often thinks about what they would do differently if they could go back to when they were younger. All the things you would have done differently, and it eats are you sometimes,because who knows where you be now, if only you’d changed thungs, or could tell yourself something that you know now.
1) Keep dancing ! When I was younger I loved to dance and know I needed to take more classes and get fit, but I told myself I wasn’t  good enough, so I stopped. I’ve regretted it ever since.

2) Get fit and healthy while your still young! I am only 22, but I’m 250lbs, type 2 diabetic and unfit. And if only I had started taking my health seriously when I was 16-17, I wouldn’t be on my weight loss journey now, I wouldn’t have gotten type 2 diabetes and I would weigh a healthy amount. My weight has always been an issue, and I have never taken it seriously until this year , and I’ve lost over a stone so in 5 weeks which for me is great!

3) Be confident! Don’t let your size hold you back!

4) Dont out your life on hold for a man. Since I was 16 I’ve been with my partner, and at times I have done/ not done things for him and because of him. I need independence.

5) Be kind to your friends, you never know what you’ve got till it’s gone….

6) Go traveling asap!! Don’t start your adult life straight away, take time out for you.

7) Think things trough, some things need more time to think about, don’t rush in.

8) Try new things, don’t be afraid to experiment, if you want to do something just do it.

9) Don’t do things that are easy, the things that push you and that are hard are usually worth more.

10) Love yourself, I am begging you, this is what your life has been missing, do this and I promise you will for happiness.

We Are Powerful !

Why is it that our self worth is determined by our size ? Why do we feel the need to judge ourselves and point out every individual flaw we may or may not have? Why can’t we see ourselves for the amazing beautiful human beings that we are. I have felt this way for a long time, and recently I havent been feeling self conscious, Ive been going out and not caring what others are thinking of me, and if they are judging me or not. And its at this point in my life I can smile, I can appreciate that I only get one body, and that this body is always going to be plus size, and thats ok. I can still be beautiful and be big, I can hold my head up high and not have to worry about feeling like I need to high every aspect of my being. 

For anyone that tried to hide away or are constantly thinking theyre not good enough, you need to stop! You need to allow yourself to be happy, you need to allow yourself freedom, otherwise you will be trapped forever, and thats a worrying and sad thought, and I know no one wants to feel that way. Any haters are only hating as they cant believe someone of our size can be confident and love ourselves, only because they dont love themselves, and seeing us do it intimidates them. We are so powerful, we are strong and we need to wake up and see this !  We have the power to intimidate people through our self love and confidence, we have the power to make me notice is, we have the power to be whoever we want to be ! Our size has nothing to do with it, its our confidence, its our self love, our respect for people and our ability to see others for more then their appearence. And is that isnt truely magnificent , I dont know what it. 

Now ladies and gentlemen, next time you want to put a part of your body now, “oh my thighs are so fat”, instead of thinking like that, think about what they do for you,or what they allow you to be able to do. Such as ” my legs allow me to dance, which makes me feel great, or my legs allow me to run and play with my children”, making these positive changes about the way  you see your body, will start to have an impact on how you view yourself. Now this may sound crazy, but I need you to start talking to yourself ! I need you to start telling yourself what you love about yourself, yes it may feel awkward for the first few times, but by saying it out loud, your hearing it and understand it, and it can have great benifits! Treat yourself as though you would your mother or you sister or friends. And what I mean by that is why not be as nice to yourself as you are to the people you love? “Think to yourself, ‘would I say this to my best friend, or my sister, or my mother?'” Silverman says. “If you cannot imagine another human being who you love saying this to themselves or someone else talking to them that way, then how are you talking to yourself in that manner?”

I hope this has reached out to somebody, thats all I ever hope ! 

Until next time my beautiful plus size people! 

Feb Favourites

So this month we have our first Monthly Favorites Blog post !

1) TRESemmé Perfectly (un)done Wave Creation Sea Foam

                                                              I am obsessed with this ! I use it every single time I wash my hair, and the reason I am obsessed with this product is because it gives you wave and texture in your hair, but its not sticky or thick. It cuts down my styling time like crazy, I usually just let my hair air dry and I love how it looks, I can then come in with a curling wand and touch things up, it makes my hair styling life so much easier its unreal! On the tin it says for soft, defined waves, and its exactly what you get, your hair wont feel hard, or crunchy or sticky, your hair is still soft and its my new favorite hair product ! 10/10

2)Milani Brow Tint pen Natural taupe

This is one that I use daily, if I don’t want to sit and fuss with a pencil or a gel. I just sketch it on my brows and fill in the blanks and it looks incredibly natural. Its for more of a daytime look rather than evening, and it completely blends with your natural colour and gives it an effortless look. Ive been using it a while now, and I couldn’t praise it any higher !

3)BOBBI BROWN Foundation Stick, Warm Honey 5.5

Love love love this product. Its slightly dewy,so if you have dry skin then this would suit you more. The coverage is amazing, it has more of a medium to full coverage, but you can also build on top of it,so I can use it in areas such as under my eyes to conceal it more, or if I want to conceal blemishes or other areas. I use a buffing brush by Real Techniques to give it an airbrushed finish.

4)Gucci Guilty for Women

I got this amazing fragrance for Christmas, but I’ve only just got around to wearing it, and it is amazing!It has a warm yet striking oriental floral with hedonism at its heart, it consists of :

Top note: Mandarin, Pink pepper

Middle note: Lilac, geranium, peach

Base: Patchouli, amber

I personally find it to have an elegant fragrance, and its extremely feminine and you can wear it day or night. It is at the higher end of the price bracket , but its worth the money. You don’t need to use a lot of the product, therefore it lasts for ages !

5) The Walking Dead

Now I know this isnt a beauty or fashion product, but I just get enough of this show ! I always heard about this show but wasn’t sure if it was my thing, so early last year I decided to try it, not knowing that this would soon consume my life ! I mean I binge watched this like crazy, im a sucker for zombie films or shows anyway, and if that wasn’t enough the captivating story draws you in and I couldn’t not, not mention Mr NORMAN REEDUS !! Mr Darrell Dixon, damn , the rugged bad boy, with a troubled past, a soft center , but a hard exterior I just want to crack ! But now we’re on season 5 wow, I have waited a long time for this. For me its started of pretty slow, not going anywhere etc, but now they’re in Alexandria, and I do not trust any one living there, there is something fishy going on, and my man Darrell knows it !

Would love to know if you’ve tried these products and what you thought !

Please feel free to comment 🙂